I am here.
I moved,
to the big City.
I am there.
I made it,
to the classroom.
Here I am, studying. I am undertaking one of my biggest challenges – a BA (Hons) degree. I have been sitting in various rooms, listening to people talk about their experiences.
Then a feeling that has always been well known by me, was given a name and a whole lot of things suddenly made sense.
I should not be here.
How did I get here,
did they make a mistake?
I am not smart enough.
What if I fail,
what if…?
Imposter Syndrome… So many things fell into place when I heard that term. As though before it had even been briefly explained, I knew it. I had met this feeling before, I KNEW it.
The philosopher Bertrand Russell wrote: “The whole problem with the world is that fools and fanatics are always so certain of themselves, and wiser people so full of doubts.”
( https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2017/sep/19/fraud-impostor-syndrome-confidence-self-esteem )
Wow, I can sure relate! Well written, lucid, and poignant!
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